When it comes to your passion, to your hopes, and to your dreams, there are no rules. If you want something, you have to go for it. It may not be conventional. It may not be what everyone expects you to do. It may not even make sense to you in the moment, but if it brings you an ounce of excitement or happiness, it is worth exploring.
Do what you have to, to be successful
I spent most of my life striving to live up to the societal standards that you graduate high school, go to college, get a degree and get a big girl job. A big girl job where you work hard every day to be the best you can be so that you can advance within your career. Hence, my Master’s Degree in Nursing Education.
Up until this point, my life has been a carefully calculated step by step process all leading to advancement in my nursing career. A process that led to praise as I reached each step along the way further emphasizing that I was on the “right” path. I thrived on the idea that I was doing life right, that I had made it to the destination of a professional career where I would succeed and be the happiest I had ever been.
There’s gotta be something more
A few years into my career though, I fell into a vicious cycle where I woke up, I went to work, I came home, went to bed and I hit repeat for the next day. Day after day, I was going through the motions fulfilling these societal expectations I placed on myself but at the end of the day, I felt a void. I often wondered when I would stop looking forward to Friday, and just live in the present–being fully fulfilled in this career that I, myself chose for me.
I love my job as a Nurse Educator, don’t get me wrong. I am good at it and I do enjoy the work that I do. Lately though, I am learning that nursing is my career. It is not my passion. What I really love is writing, reading, working out, personal development, self-care, and coaching others to live a happy and healthy lifestyle.
The start of something new
After coming to the realization that Nursing is my career but writing is my passion, I began to envision this blog. I knew that I wanted to write and I wanted my writing to reach people. I wanted to make a difference in someones life and I wanted to live a healthy and happy lifestyle inspired by not just me but a community of healthy, optimistic, goal oriented women.
The set back
I knew that a blog was the first place to start but I just didn’t think that I could do it. The only things on my mind were –what makes me cool enough to write a blog? How am I going to keep up with a blog and a full time job? What makes what you have to say so special? I thought to myself, I have two babies under 3. This is crazy. I am crazy.
The come back
I continued on with these limiting beliefs for weeks until one day, I had been enjoying a cup of coffee the morning after participating in a self-care society event and I reflected on some things that the group told me the night before. They told me that I could do this. They said things like who is to say you can’t do this? What do other successful bloggers have that you do not? It doesn’t take a super power. Why can’t you have everything you ever dreamed of? And that is when everything changed.
You got this girl
These thoughts stuck with me and I realized that yes, I can do this and I can have anything I have ever dreamed of. I can have a career and a passion project too. Our degrees, our job, our careers — they do not have to be the end all be all.
Sure, I am Erika Walton RN but I am also Erika Walton — a girl with hopes, dreams and a passion for writing. We need to remember that we can do whatever we put our minds to. We just have to take the leap.
The days are long but my heart is happy.
Think it, want it, do it.
It’s not always easy, but it is worth it.